I should read more
I’m something like 40 pages away from the end of THE GREAT DIVIDE, but I felt like taking a break (it is still a lovely book with characters I care about, but there are a couple of beautifully-written useless men who annoy me). I was starting to scroll social media during the break, when I realized my time would be better spent here.
I actually watched a movie last night, The Roses, which I thought had mostly fantastic acting from Colman and Cumberbatch. Caught up a bit with Abbott Elementary, too. Point being, I watched some TV, something of a rare enough occurrence. I suppose I felt more relaxed, more free.
And then tonight was another meeting about our upcoming books, and I realized I hadn’t read a lot of them yet, where I used to read maybe at least 2 per division. Thought it was strange because I know I’ve been reading a lot. Maybe just not the upcoming manuscripts.
Hence another reason, I feel, why I should go back to just reading as much as I can. Because, well, it’s both my job and me. Even if I know my worth isn’t dependent on my job or productivity. But perhaps it’s just strange that the activity that also provides me with the money with which to live is the same activity that makes me feel most like myself. And having said all this, I realize it’s an enormous privilege, but also can be a source of pressure.
In any case, I deem my break done. Shall return to my book now and see what Ms. Henriquez has in store for her characters.